friendship?!?

hmmm.... i dunno whether i should write this down here...
but i am confused...
i dunno writing this down will affect it to become worst...
but here goes...
i didnt know such a long friendship we have could juz fall this easily...
u say u heard things...
bad things...
but where do u heard things from and who say it?!?
i need to hear ur side of the story too...
u ask mi... and i did tell u...
and u tell mi tat i didnt defend u?
how am i suppose to defend u when they already think of u this way?
u make mi sound like it is my fault...
i am the one that started all this...
i am the one tat say this things to them...
but honestly... i did not...
i didnt even say anything... even the things u told mi...
i didnt even say it out...
so isit fair for mi?
you can hate mi for not defending u...
you can hate mi for saying things abt u which i didnt...
i shouldnt use hate... i should use dislike...
anyway... u know whats hurting to me...
u say i have the same thinking as them...
if i do... i wont even bother abt u...
if i do... i wont even worry abt u...
if i do... i wont even ask u how are u...
if i do... i wont even name u as my friend...
why would i bother?!?
there are alot of things i know abt you...
but yet i tell pple i dunno...
and they ask mi...
mi and u are so close... how come i dunno?
ended up i defended both of us...
to prevent them asking further...
if u wanna know how... u can ask mi...
i am inbetween u and them...
i dunno what the things u heard...
but i think i have the right to know...
rather then being left confused...
this friendship means alot to mi...
if not it wouldnt have last tat long...
many pple would have left it unsolved and didnt bother abt it...
friends come and go...
but the close ones are the one i keep...
i hope we clear things up fast...
if not... we might drift further apart...
unless our friendship doesnt mean much to u...
once again... i am sorry for the things i written or say...
but its a feeling in mi right now...
and i am nt angry at you...
i guess we should clear things out...
till then... take care...