memories~
went to meet dear at tpy at 5plus.. took 105 to town to meet wee wee, kx and elaine.. went walking ard to buy cindy's bdae present... from far east all the way to ps...damn tiring... cos all rushing for time... we walk super fast and running... lolz... finally we bought her a necklace at citigems... nice nice... then went to makan... after that mi and dear left... walk back to ps to buy some things to makan at my house... hee... bought sushi and city satay... reach home bathe then heat up the food and eat while watching movie... watch halfway we were tired already... so went to sleep lor... wake up at 8... suppose to go sentosa but kx cant make it cos they went dbl o last night.. went to tpy to get newspaper... while dar went to friend's house to play mj... lolz... waiting to go out to fetch my parents... hee...
been home alone for the past 4 days... and is not good for mi to be alone... reason being... i tend to think alot... lolz.. real lots okay! dunno whether it is good or bad... but thats juz mi... =/
i dunno how to start this entry also... guess thats how it is... maybe what i am thinking now is not what i am typing... hmm...blah... what am i saying... lets juz follow the title... memories... hmm... why do we have memories?!? thats what i wanna know... those good ones is okay... but bad ones?!? noooo way... i know some pple who really are sentimental pple... they juz keep everything... be it letters, emails, gifts, etc... those really little things that make them remember the past... or they juz cant simply put down the past and move on?!? hmmm... *scratch* and that link to me... i am one sentimental person... but recently... ever since i shifted... i started throwing all those old stuffs away... it was a torture for mi at first.... but i manage to throw them away... maybe is becos looking at it juz make mi think back... and finally throwing it away is like throwing part of my life away... a past.. be it sad or happy... isit better this way?!? *ponders* i mean... does looking at the things u keep means something? meaning that u wish u were back to the past.. the way it is before? wishing that maybe u did or didnt do this things then things will be different back then? or u juz couldnt let it go? juz found some really old old cds that i burn out... and my old emails folders... pple writing poems and notes... and juz looking at it make mi all sad all over again.. and i juz practically deleted them... before we shifted and mum was helping mi pack my stuff... and she was right when she tell mi that whats gone is gone... why keep the past with u... when is juz a past... she saying it makes mi realise that i haven move on... i am in the past still.. why i did this and that... and i finally take a last look at those stuff and throw them away... it was a real sigh of relieve... isit better this way? i dunno... maybe it does... but we cant keep everything with us forever right... doesnt it hurt u seeing that someone u are close with keeping those old memories... and makes u ponders whether they have moved on or not... and when they say they have... it makes u ponders more whether what they say is true... not meaning that u dun trust the person... but is all human nature... there's nthing u can do about it either cos thats what some pple are... so why memories... i wish i am senile at times... or even having memory problem... cos i dun have to remember the past when i ponder onto something in my room, emails or even down the road... its always the sad ones that is making the huge impact in our lives... cos being hurt makes u remember them... isit fair? wost is most of us have lesser happy memories then sad ones... and it make mi wonder whether i will have more happy memories then sad one when the day i die comes... =/ lolz... whats worst isit fair to the person u are with now? hmmm...this is confusing... haha.. i am sure no one knows what to do eh? memories are there all the time... but i guess when it is time to let go juz let it go... no matter what it takes... juz let it go... maybe this way.. everyone will be happy... true? sigh... this sux... i hate to think so much when i am alone... glad my family are back today... cant wait to pick them up at the airport later... anyway thinking too much juz hurts me... well... thats life... we cant do much abt it also...
back from the airport not long ago... took 3 buses to go there.. damn tired... ko on the bus... lolz... makan there then went home by cab... reach home unpack the stuff and i receive lots of things... yay~ damn happy... hee.... tml class at 8am.. damn tired man~ going to sleep soon... so happy they are back... miss them lotsa~!!!! hee...
*cheerios* [*-9days-*] grinz... going to be older by 1 yr soon~lolz..
[Being with someone and making that person feel as if they were of no importance in our life is far worse than feeling alone and miserable]
been home alone for the past 4 days... and is not good for mi to be alone... reason being... i tend to think alot... lolz.. real lots okay! dunno whether it is good or bad... but thats juz mi... =/
i dunno how to start this entry also... guess thats how it is... maybe what i am thinking now is not what i am typing... hmm...blah... what am i saying... lets juz follow the title... memories... hmm... why do we have memories?!? thats what i wanna know... those good ones is okay... but bad ones?!? noooo way... i know some pple who really are sentimental pple... they juz keep everything... be it letters, emails, gifts, etc... those really little things that make them remember the past... or they juz cant simply put down the past and move on?!? hmmm... *scratch* and that link to me... i am one sentimental person... but recently... ever since i shifted... i started throwing all those old stuffs away... it was a torture for mi at first.... but i manage to throw them away... maybe is becos looking at it juz make mi think back... and finally throwing it away is like throwing part of my life away... a past.. be it sad or happy... isit better this way?!? *ponders* i mean... does looking at the things u keep means something? meaning that u wish u were back to the past.. the way it is before? wishing that maybe u did or didnt do this things then things will be different back then? or u juz couldnt let it go? juz found some really old old cds that i burn out... and my old emails folders... pple writing poems and notes... and juz looking at it make mi all sad all over again.. and i juz practically deleted them... before we shifted and mum was helping mi pack my stuff... and she was right when she tell mi that whats gone is gone... why keep the past with u... when is juz a past... she saying it makes mi realise that i haven move on... i am in the past still.. why i did this and that... and i finally take a last look at those stuff and throw them away... it was a real sigh of relieve... isit better this way? i dunno... maybe it does... but we cant keep everything with us forever right... doesnt it hurt u seeing that someone u are close with keeping those old memories... and makes u ponders whether they have moved on or not... and when they say they have... it makes u ponders more whether what they say is true... not meaning that u dun trust the person... but is all human nature... there's nthing u can do about it either cos thats what some pple are... so why memories... i wish i am senile at times... or even having memory problem... cos i dun have to remember the past when i ponder onto something in my room, emails or even down the road... its always the sad ones that is making the huge impact in our lives... cos being hurt makes u remember them... isit fair? wost is most of us have lesser happy memories then sad ones... and it make mi wonder whether i will have more happy memories then sad one when the day i die comes... =/ lolz... whats worst isit fair to the person u are with now? hmmm...this is confusing... haha.. i am sure no one knows what to do eh? memories are there all the time... but i guess when it is time to let go juz let it go... no matter what it takes... juz let it go... maybe this way.. everyone will be happy... true? sigh... this sux... i hate to think so much when i am alone... glad my family are back today... cant wait to pick them up at the airport later... anyway thinking too much juz hurts me... well... thats life... we cant do much abt it also...
back from the airport not long ago... took 3 buses to go there.. damn tired... ko on the bus... lolz... makan there then went home by cab... reach home unpack the stuff and i receive lots of things... yay~ damn happy... hee.... tml class at 8am.. damn tired man~ going to sleep soon... so happy they are back... miss them lotsa~!!!! hee...
*cheerios* [*-9days-*] grinz... going to be older by 1 yr soon~lolz..
[Being with someone and making that person feel as if they were of no importance in our life is far worse than feeling alone and miserable]
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