fuck up life~

is 1pm... and is a sat... and i am alone at home...
rotting...
listening to music...
haiz...
damn bored...

ytd went out with biwei...
shopping for karen's bdae present...
haiz...
juz walking aimlessly...
yet i try to be happy...
darn...
it sux to feel this way...
why? why?
going to sch everyday is like forcing myself...
seeing my friends make mi happy?
i know they make mi smile...
but when i am alone...
everything came crashing down...
even myself...
and tears juz flows down naturally...
and it realise i had noone to be there for mi...
gosh...
i know there is someone there for mi...
but how come i always feel it doesnt...
i dun wanna feel this way...
i dun...
but why?
haiz..
juz let mi free my mind...
cos i cant take it anymore...
plz... haiz