feeling better?

feeling so much relax i guess... lolz...
juz came home from dinner with biwei and alex...
damn full...
had a match with EEE today...
they all damn qiang.... even the gals... powerful... block here and there...
i was like grabbing this gal... and she was grabbing mi back...
accidently scatch her when she accidently trip mi... so funny...
after that was DE vs CLS... DE lose by 2 marks...
very qiang teams... the both...
so we are playing with DE cos we lose...
lolz...
so we were discussing... no medals... so play for fun...
lolz... 8pple inside instead of the usual which is 5person...
we were laughing and lauging...
all come out stun... bo liao de...
even fyan can accidently drop the ball and give DE...lolz...
so funnie...
i was feeling so much relax and better after ytd...
was lying in bed... then feel so sad suddenly... then i ended up crying... wth...
cos lots of questions flow through my mind... make mi think until i sad...
why i always being put down by other pple?? make mi feel low morale...
why i am so dumb?!? make mi feel like a dumb ass in class...
why am i studying in a course which i dun like?!? make mi feel that i wasted two yrs le...
Am i fated to be alone?!? make mi feel like i have no friends....
Does anyone cares?!? makes mi feel that i am so lonely and no one bothers abt mi...
isit because of me?!? makes mi feel that i sucks totally... my character and my personality makes pple hate mi?!?
i feel so down ytd... is like leading on... my questions lead from one questions to another..
my tears juz flow naturally...
it hurts... haiz